life can be up and down.. i always wonder y do we need to have??? some ppl say when there is up and down .. u will face different kind of reality..??? i dun know whether is true or not?i also hear before the more difficult times and suffer more.. next time yr life will easily getting better.. is this true or fake? to me i think i rather to choose to suffer now than have easy life now.. i want to have a better life in my future.. maybe ppl will think this is a stupid way to of.. i really dun know.. i really hope tt i can smile and always stay happy like last time.. but i think is not easy at allll.. i dun know whether i am thinking in a mature way or childish way.. haix...

last year i told my cliqque tt i want to work hard in my ite life to go to poly wif them in 2007.. i think is not easy unless i want to work hard!! but i dun think i can do it now.. cuz i realise tt i am getting lazier each day.. i think my cliqque when u read tis i think u all will scold me and better get myself up.. i really hope i can.. but i can't cuz i know some of u all not doing tt rite now.. i read and hear tt u all want to work hard but u all r not.. u all just say but did not do.. u all always do the subject tt u like but nelegact e rest.. y??? u all want to do this.. can't u all just do all.. i know is not easy .. but as long as u all have the determinetion.. u all sure can do it.. just put more effort in it!! i really hope tt u all will do well ..

i think now i better getting up and not to fall back!! i want to be the gal tt i always be.. not the bad gal BUT a good one... JOLYN !!! come on i can do it i can study hard and dun let other ppl affect.. as long as u know who is yr good friends and dun care bad friends.. and dun forget abt yr family!! my family and cliqque and the real good friends will stay by side!!! :) i must move on not bad ways and dun think too much.. just dun care wat yr bad friends say!! dun let it affect u!!!